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A few days ago I made a very brave step in my life.
I went home and embrace my past....

A string of events happened before...
It occured to me to have a nice holiday for the long weekend of CNY.
But somehow I was upset by so many things, I cant comprehend the situation.
I want to have a great time, but I have no money to begin with.
My friends are busy doing what they want to do.
He is not an option.
So what was left.

I confessed everything to my dearest friend.
She was so worried about me.
Somehow I thought of going to Darussyifa'
To get my answers straight once and for all.
It turns out....
Suprisingly...
I was just emotionally stressed.....


I was told that every events in our life,
we always have a choice...
Its kinda sad really, when I was asked;
" What makes you happy?"
And all i could think off was; reading books and playing with cats.
So lame!
But anyhow, I realised I'm just being me...
and the happiest day of my life was with someone who just ....dissapear..

I was told just to go home.
What has happened, happened.
And my heart just cant take it, missing my babies and little siblings so much.
In my heart i know that whatever happens, everybody makes mistakes....
And my parents are included...


I know what i did broke their hearts...
I never ever even intended too..
But turns of events have made it worst..
Especially by the ones we trust...

I cant say I've forgiven her.
But I can say I can manage so as to not make a drama.
People dont change easily, especially if its not for the right reasons.
And as you learn they are not trustworthy.Dont ever trust them again.Ever.


Alhamdullilah,
Everything went well..
My love and beauty baby has grown so well and pampered.
My things are kept properly.
My father even locked it, I'm so grateful he understood me.
And I am so grateful he's not that grumpy anymore.

Alhamdullilah....
Hopefully this year would be a good year for me..
InsyAllah...