Suit & Tie

this new justin timberlake song somehow cheers me up..

Right now, I just feel like shit..
I think I made a mistake..
Well, everybody makes mistakes..

its hard to meet expectations..
i'm just stressed out about it..
and its all because of money..
as how much we try to deny our need of money..
it spits on your face when you actually need it...


Its embarassing enough youve made a typo..
Its even more embarassing when its cc'ed to all the important people in the company..
And when you thought what you did was right, it turns out wrong?

Well, this is what it feels like working for the sake of money..
Hopefully I can survive a few months...
Otherwise, astalavista!

Fraud!

The first time in my life,
I was so desperate!
I have no money!!!!!!

Damn it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ya Allah, i hope you will help me...
Please Ya Allah....I dont have anymore left...

Please, let them have a heart....let them realize what they did was wrong and they repent.
Please Ya Allah, help me ......

something stupid

i did something stupid...
maybe stupid...
but somehow i'm glad..hahaha!

gotta be more spontaneous!

For Love Day

“Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.” 

-Bob Marley-

HOME

A few days ago I made a very brave step in my life.
I went home and embrace my past....

A string of events happened before...
It occured to me to have a nice holiday for the long weekend of CNY.
But somehow I was upset by so many things, I cant comprehend the situation.
I want to have a great time, but I have no money to begin with.
My friends are busy doing what they want to do.
He is not an option.
So what was left.

I confessed everything to my dearest friend.
She was so worried about me.
Somehow I thought of going to Darussyifa'
To get my answers straight once and for all.
It turns out....
Suprisingly...
I was just emotionally stressed.....


I was told that every events in our life,
we always have a choice...
Its kinda sad really, when I was asked;
" What makes you happy?"
And all i could think off was; reading books and playing with cats.
So lame!
But anyhow, I realised I'm just being me...
and the happiest day of my life was with someone who just ....dissapear..

I was told just to go home.
What has happened, happened.
And my heart just cant take it, missing my babies and little siblings so much.
In my heart i know that whatever happens, everybody makes mistakes....
And my parents are included...


I know what i did broke their hearts...
I never ever even intended too..
But turns of events have made it worst..
Especially by the ones we trust...

I cant say I've forgiven her.
But I can say I can manage so as to not make a drama.
People dont change easily, especially if its not for the right reasons.
And as you learn they are not trustworthy.Dont ever trust them again.Ever.


Alhamdullilah,
Everything went well..
My love and beauty baby has grown so well and pampered.
My things are kept properly.
My father even locked it, I'm so grateful he understood me.
And I am so grateful he's not that grumpy anymore.

Alhamdullilah....
Hopefully this year would be a good year for me..
InsyAllah...

Missing 29112012

I cant help it....

I'm missing that particular person so much...

Its amazing how troughout your life youve depended so much on yourself, you forgot how it feels like to be treated like well, to me...i feel like a princess...

I never knew how somthing so simple can be so meaningful...

Yes...I know most of my friends might disagree with me, considering the fact that its near a month old absence..but...*sigh....it was so wonderful.....

Today of all days, I keep remembering those moments...

Those special moments that we share....

Those moments where you wish it would never end...

Those special moments where you dont have to care....

I wish i can at least just see him one more time,

just to thank him in person and wishing him all the best in life...

But patience is best right now....

Love is beautiful

New Job New Life

Its nearly a year since I have typed anything in this blog, so much has happened so unexpectedly..

However, the main reason is that I havent had time to update, I had a new job. But right now it became my previous job...Hahaha! How fast time flies...How fast decisions can be made..

My job previously was working at a construction site...Yup..you've read it right, this small girl working at a construction site. I've had so much experience working there I dont know where to start! I've met interesting people, I've fallen in and out of love, I've suffered a minor accident, my trust was cheated (not the first time) , but most of all, I learn to be more strict with others...

Most important of all troughout the experience, I've learn that some people are always , always not as they seem to be...

Some people may drink or womanize but thay can respect you,
Some people may want you to learn on the job, but they just want you to do their job,
Some people show they cared, because they want to get in your pants,
Some people are too much to handle, but somewhat entertaining..

Its sad seeing some people who never had the chance on a single education when I see so many people here dismiss even the slightest advice.

Dearest please always have in mind to be much better than tomorrow,
even if its just a little..

Dont move yourself backwards just because of your stubborness to understand the real meaning of life..

Right now, I'm working in a more casual environment. People are more relaxed here and its a new experience for me.

Maybe this year would turn out better for me, InsyAllah....

" Jangan menzalimi diri sendiri"