First of 2015

Hey I heard you were a wild one

Oooh

If I took you home

It'd be a home run

Show me how you'll do

-Wild One's-

It's funny how some songs can get you're heart pumping.
It's been a long time since my last post and Alhamdullilah, I am still me ever since;
Smiling the same smile,
Holding on to the same faith,
Keep believing the same love story
Moving forward to achieve something..

It has been great getting to know myself more and more

And meeting new people have definately changes some part of me for the better

I guess every flavours of life, we learn to accept bit by bit, no matter how overwhelming it may be..

So if you feel down or blue,
Just give yourself a chance to be yourself
You will turn out great

InsyAllah..

Salam 2015,

Bakal menaip utk 2thn yg tertunggak

Nantikan..

Cinta ini membunuhku..

Mengapa saat aku baru mengenali kamu,
Kau ibarat milikku?

Mengapa saat aku sudah terpikat akan kamu,
Kau seolah menjauhi diri?

Mungkin ini semua silapku?

Ya Allah,

Mengapa setiap kali,
Perasaan itu dtg, seolah ia milikku,
Tapi ternyata ia milik Kau semata..


Ampunkanlah aku..
Ampunkanlah...

Tiada niat langsung dihati utk melupakanMu..

Setiap kekuatanku datang dariMu..

Hidup matiku hanyalah dgn izinMu..

Tuhan..

Cinta ini membunuhku..

Somebody save me from this madness

I'm running

Running away from this madness

It haunts me whenever I sleep

It haunts me whenever I'm alone

Can you feel it?

Can you feel it when the rain drops?

Can  you fell it when all you see is somebody else in the mirror?

Can you feel it?



No matter how hard I try to run

It will always find me

It will always, always consume me


I screamed so loud nobody hear me,
I cried too hard no tears can define me,

How can somebady save me?

Can you even hear me?

Keeping up with myself because I used to...

Here is the list of things that I was used to ehem be praised at when I was young,

After having much thought, I wont let anyone or anybody tell me I'm not good at it;

Be prepared for the unexpected!


*Drum roll.......







1) Drawing!

When I was around 4-15years old, I was very active in joining drawing/coloring competitions. I may not won anything much in those competitions but it was an achievement to me. Sometimes I just wish I could save all those drawings and keep them for me to see, that I am talented.

I could still remember when I was in London, the teacher called my Dad to show him how talented I am in drawing a rabbit. At that time, I was seldom acknowledge by teachers there since I can't even speak the language at that time (>_<)..

Those were the days I would stay up all night just to make a perfect picture. Nowadays, I'm still working on my talent. I'll post it here once I have a more 'smart' phone.



2. Embroidery stitches

Remember your teenage days you have these small projects made for this certain subject called 'Kajian Tempatan'? I took ERT - Ekonomi Rumah Tangga, which was obviously the only choice back then for typical malay girls. So there I was trying all sorts of things to be different, then wallah! I did it! I would very much try all those trendy beading styles, maybe that way i can create my own wedding dress, ahaks!



3. Writing

Sonnet 18. One of my favourite poems. Yes, I love to write (thus this blog? :P) ....one time when i was 17, my teacher made us write a journal , to encourage us to write our hearts out. I never knew I had it in me anyway but she encourage me to write more of my feelings and how i realte to things surrounding me. I do admit that my writing emotes my mood but well, one does tend to falter a bit right?




Well, I'm planning to sharpen all existing talents and create new ones,
As long as I'm still alive than I guess it wont hurt to try right?

Planning to discover myself by taking the road not yet taken,

Here's a few that I confidently think that I can do..ehem..

1) Singing  *blush
2) Cooking
3) Dancing (just roll your eyes,lol!)
4) Teaching


These are all interesting things to do..
Never ever let anyone downgrade yourself just because they haven't tried it or they think they anything about being real.

Real people walk the talk.
Real people don't act all mature and stuff.
I aim to be real people, for real, haahaha!


Dream big? Hell yeah!

Somehow I feel like the world is mine..

Blessed the first week of Ramadhan..

I have miss this month where I'm all out to be the best I can be..

And alhamdullilah, following the previous year, I'm getting better and being better..

Previous days before Ramadhan, I've felt like I've loosen the grip of reality..I don't know where to start, who's who and keep asking myself why? Sounds delirious? Well that's me.


Alhamdullilah, the first day is just fine..what a fine day...

Hopefully this year's positivity will continue to proceed until the end of year..
I believe so..

InsyAllah..


The up and downs in life will always be there,

But I am always blessed with nice,good natured people who knows the real meaning of life and friends who are always by my side whenever I'm down..love you lots! ...

I know I'm sounding too estatic for Ramadhan but I feel like this month is special!


I can really 'see' human's true nature within this month
I can really 'feel' how unfortunate people feel for even a cup of rice
I can really 'challenge' myself for all the shortcomings that may come trough.

And its nice to know with a little faith, I've come by just fine..

i took a leap of faith, and i survived..

 

 

 

 

I know most of you might think Ramadhan as a challenging month,
I understand it and I wish you all the best cause the best things dont always come easy right?


Yes, its tempting to see delicious food and drinks ...owh how people talk about it!
Yup, you wish 'those' people will stop making a fuss about it!.. ini semua poyo!

I dont blame you at all,
who loves a show off right?

Thus, I can only pray that someday, at any time soon or later,
 you will feel all the best things in this world that we may take for granted.


Hoping you have great days ahead.
Simply little me.

How to save a life?

I dont know why I'm always tempted to write something when I'm in the blue mood..

Currently I'm obsess with songs sang by Hafiz;

I think due to my state of mind, I can easily penetrate the feelings that are protrayed in a song, even if in real life I'm not experiencing it.

My life will turn out well, I have faith in that,
but somehow I cant make people understand how I feel..

Well, practise makes perfet right?

Today, I praised someone out of random,
this person I have not met for how many years I dont remember that he was also surprised.

I feel that right now in this time and age that we need to praise people around us more, to mark up the positivity in the air..

Who knows, with that simple praise, I could make someone day much more happier.

Happy people will make you happy right/

So much people tend to judge so much, they spread a lot of negativity which leads to us feeling inferior with ourselves.

Strong people will brush it away, but some just need support much like any normal person do

It takes faith and hope to make a person strong-willed and not much people have that ability.

I've seen how some freinds of mine broke with such a small force of misfortune, they felt it like a hurricane.

Different people, different experience, different strengh...

Today, I will start to spread out the positive in life

who knows, I might save a life?